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| There were reasons we met, reasons for the good times and reasons for the bad times, and most importantly a reason to end. We have more to learn, more to experience and more loving to do in this lifetime. 
I want to run with reckless emotion, find out if love is,
the size of the ocean. Even if I crash and burn, at least
I'll know what it's like to feel alive.
And maybe it's true, I'm falling on you.
Maybe there's a chance that you're stuck on me too.
So maybe I'm wrong, it's all in my head;
maybe we're afraid of words we both haven't said
-jaysean, maybe. 
he's the king of mixed signals and I'm the queen of second thoughts It's like my life isn't even real to me unless you're there, and you're in it, and I'm sharing it with you. And I don't know what I was waiting for, and I don't know what I was scared of, but I'm not. I'm not scared, and I'm not waiting. I'm here.- Gilmore Girls 
"In a midnight talk, in a morning kiss,
when I'm in your arms - that's where it is." 
"I put him first, I thought he'd stay, but he couldn't weather the storm,so he left me here in the rain"
"And I've got no illusions about you. And guess what? I never did.
And when I said 'I'll take it', I meant as is." - Ani Difranco. 
Hope, she'd learned, was sometimes all a person had. 
Do everything you want, and if that means doing something you'll regret in the morning- sleep late. I believe luck is in your attitude. It sounds like a really annoying bumper sticker,
but there is such a great truth in that. You choose how you want to feel about what happens to you. -Drew Barrymore 
But if everything was always smooth and perfect,
you'd get too used to that, you know?
You have to have a little bit of disorganization now and then.
Otherwise, you'll never really enjoy it when things go right.
- The Truth About Forever 
it's no use going back to yesterday,
because I was a different person then. as much as you think you might know somebody, sometimes it just ends up that you don't even have the smallest clue of what they're capable of.
 Stories wait for endings, but songs are brave things bold enough to sing when all they know is darkness 
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| I had a pretty good Fourth of July.
I think I'm going to a baseball game today.
I haven't taken my contacts out in days.
My lips are dry.
I've been to an amusement/water park within the last few days.
I like my coffee with just a dash of milk.
The last few days have been pretty emotionally stressful.
I drove a lot yesterday.
It's already July and I still don't have a job :(
My family is going on some sort of trip this weekend.
I've heard of GeoCaching.
I really want to paint my bathroom.
I'm going to get a car before the end of the year most likely.
I also want one of those Vera Wang wristlet thingies everyone has.
I'm getting a new phone soon.
People who break their phones every two months don't deserve to have one.
Kids are so spoiled nowadays.
The person I look up to the most is my dad.
"Public Enemies" looks good.
The mall around my house sucks.
I have a summer reading project I should get started on.
I crack my knuckles.
I want to start on a low carb diet.
I've never had pink eye.
Tea lattes from Starbucks are the only good drinks they have.
Or at least the only drinks worth paying that much for!
The people in "Lilo & Stitch" are oddly proportioned.
I love the feeling of being organized.
I also like making lists, though I have a hard time sticking to them :/
I'm kind of in the mood for a scary movie.
Reading some peoples' private Xanga entries is kind of sad sometimes.
I don't understand how people can actually want to do nothing but party all the time.
I'd feel like a pathetic waste of life if I was like that.
Am I the only person who doesn't smoke weed anymore?
Immortal Technique is probably the best rapper out there.
Little kids that are insanely good at sports make me jealous.
I love reading but don't like libraries.
I hate carnival food.
I tend to zone out when I drive for long periods of time.
I've ran a red light before.
When we have family over, they always sleep in my bedroom.
I get tired very easily.
I actually like going to bed early. | | |
| Yall please for vote me to win Jonas Brothers Tickets here!! Time has told me, you are a rare, rare find.
A troubled cure for a troubled mind.
And time has told me not to ask for more,
for someday our ocean will find its shore.
I always used to care so much, until I found peace with myself,
Because suddenly, I wasn't concerned,
If they were gossiping or partying, or if I was all alone,
Being me is enough.
I roll the window down and then begin to breathe in the darkest country road and the strong scent of evergreen from the passenger seat as you are driving me home. Then looking upwards, I strain my eyes and try to tell the difference between shooting stars and satellites from the passenger seat as you are driving me home. "Do they collide?" I ask and you smile. With my feet on the dash, the world doesn't matter. When you feel embarrassed, then I'll be your pride. When you need directions, then I'll be the guide. For all time, for all time.
 I know your type, boy you're dangerous
the guy I'd be stupid to trust
Let's stay in tonight and write songs about how much we want eachother. 
I've got the brightest star you'll ever find. Even the sun is jealous of the way you shine. We are the constellations in the sky. Wrap me up in your arms. It's beautiful when time is ours and everything's a miracle. 
"I will not play at tug o' war. I'd rather play at hug o' war,
where everyone hugs instead of tugs,
where everyone giggles and rolls on the rug,
where everyone kisses, and everyone grins,
and everyone cuddles, and everyone wins."
- Shel Silverstein 
When you know that im gone you will say to yourself. I have nothing anymore, nothing to ignore, no one to make sure you're ok, to make sure you're ok.. “Go confidently in the direction of your dreams.Live the life you have imagined.”
- Henry David Thoreau 
He stumbles over his words, closes his eyes tightly. Breathes in. Breathes out. Amost loses his courage. "I love you," he says. "I love you so much it hurts." 
We laughed and we talked about tomorrow, how we hoped eventually we could smile again. Then morning came. We were smiling again. Look at that, who needs miracles when you've got words as bright as the sun in the sky? 
I've honestly been working on this post for like 2 months haha.
I'll post again maybe in a week or two or three. | | |
| You are a dream come true for someone, but not for me.
Still, can't we have fun, darling?
I can't say what I don't mean, you give me more than I can contain.
It hurts to know the truth, but this will never go your way.
I never said I love you.
 I was amazed that they had so much to talk about.
from the second they saw each other,
there was constant laughing, and sarcasm, and commentary,
something connecting them that pulled taut
or fell limp with each thought spoken.
their words, like the music, had the potential to be endless.
I don't think I'll be posting anytime soon, I dunno,
I've been doing this for years, time for something new, maybe. | | |
| "The whole world, myself included, seem to have one thing in common:
We're just a crowd of people who don't really fit in anywhere,
attempting to convince one another that we do."
~Andrew McMahon~ I will be your accident if you will be my ambulance. I will be your screech and crash if you will be my crutch and cast. I will be your one more time if you will be my one last chance. 
Nobody said it was easy. It's such a shame for us to part. Nobody said it was easy. No one ever said it would be this hard. Oh, take me back to the start. Liars don't get second chances, and secrets don't make friends. So open up, spill your guts; make sure you make an honest mess.
 “Now is the time to get drunk! To stop being the
martyred slaves of time, to get absolutely drunk -
on wine, poetry, or on virtue, as you please.”
- Charles Baudelaire
I'm a firm believer that sometimes it's right to do the wrong thing
Don’t ever save anything for a special occasion.
Being alive is a special occasion
One day you make a wrong turn, or take a detour,
& you end up in some crazy place you can’t even find on the map,
doing something you never thought you would do.
maybe you feel a little lost while it`s happening,
but later you realize that it was the best part of the trip.
Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal
with the intent of throwing it at someone else;
you are the one who gets burned. 
I'm not the type of girl to wait by the phone. I won't cry. I know it won't get me anywhere. I'll laugh a lot and often. And I'll live my own life. And I would really like for you to be a part of it. But I'll be fine without you, I promise. 
Superman’s not brave. You can't be brave if you’re indestructible. It's every day people, like you and me, which are brave, knowing we could easily be defeated, but still continue forward. Take chances because it's better to cross the line and suffer the consequences than to stare at that line for the rest of your life. 
to make letting go a little easier, there are several steps you can take. The first is trusting. Trust that no matter what, you will be okay. When you know that you will be okay, letting go becomes relatively easy. We used to be able to talk about everything, but now it's impossible to even start a decent conversation with you; you can't deny it, things have changed. We've grown apart and you have to face the fact that I will no longer be there ever single time you need me. The truth is what it is and that is that I do not have any more respect for you as an individual now. You're just another face in the crowd.
While you were sleeping I figured out everything. I was constructed for you, and you were molded for me. Now I feel your name, coursing through my veins. You shine so bright its insane; you put the sun to shame. | | |
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